There are two answers to this question. The first one that I will share is the public version, this is what I told my friends and family. Reiki was another string to my treatment bow. I had heard and read a little bit about it. I had never had a Reiki treatment. Money was tight. I had just graduated with a Diploma of Massage followed closely by a Dip in AromDSC_0014atherapy. Any money I had went into advertising, buying products and finding clients to build my business. Reiki was to become one more service that I offered. With Reiki I could offer packages, I could advertise in another category of the alternative therapy pages and so on. I found a Reiki course offered on a local barter system that I was enrolled in, so my first Reiki attunement was a gift more ways than one.
Deep down all of us seekers and healers are looking for something that we feel is missing inside of ourselves. For some it is a hole, an emptiness. Others may feel a uselessness, and incompetent at helping, or maybe some are disconnected from something they don’t quite know. It is easy to get caught up in life, money and getting by. Where is a spiritual life? How do we heal ourselves? Know ourselves?
In the quiet of meditation, I know that I was drawn to the healing arts because life hurts, life wounds and life disenchants us. Disconnected from the church of my youth, family and often the everyday people around me I was sad, I was lost and frustratingly seeking something better. I wanted to be better. I wanted to be able to do something more with my everyday than what I was capable of.
Sure on the outside it was always about helping others. It was always about what I could do for you and yes I would appreciate it if you would pay me too. Incidentally my fees were always less than other practitioners charged and I always tried to give more. Not because I could afford to, not because my clients couldn’t afford to but because I did not think the work I did was good enough. (That’s another blog post I am sure- back to my original point)
Healers become healers for a reason. We can spend years finding out that reason. We can float in and out of our healing world and reality. I left for a while to get a ‘real’ job. The result? I am still looking for my answers, or my questions depending on which way you are looking at it.
The short answer is that I study the healing arts because I am human and because I am human I am broken. I am broken because I am often separated from my spirit self. Reiki, love and healing helps to put me back together again.